Day 10 - 2nd week is TOUGH

I already used my flex points. Mostly because I had a stupid hoagie. I wanted to celebrate my new apartment and ended up wasting a ton of points! sad. I could have had a slice of my favorite cheesecake for less points then that damn hoagie.

Also- I hate not being able to celebrate. I want to lose weight, but a celebratory glass of wine or birthday cake for a friend's birthday or going out for dinner... ugh! I feel like i'm missing out. But it's so true that nothing I've eaten will taste as good as being skinny feels.

And I want to be skinny so bad. I walk around with the confidence of a supermodel. Most of the time I think I'm pretty sexy - but when i was picking up (girlish products cuz i ran out) at the grocery store this morning - I caught a glimpse of myself in a small mirror so I only saw my torso and one arm, but I didn't recognize myself! I was like: who is that chunky girl- and it was me. Confidence zapper. :(

And I don't think I'm wrong in thinking i look sometimes. I think I've got a pretty face, and kickin curves- they just need to be smaller. I know that when I lose weight I could easily be a knock-out. I just hate the fact that you only live once and I don't want to live my whole life on a diet. I want to be able to celebrate.

I know WW is the best option for me because it allows me to eat what I want, in small quantities - but i CRAVE things i can't have anymore. Like yesterday- I got a salad from the salad bar and there was tuna salad. And I just HAD to have some. I don't even LIKE tuna fish! but I ate it and was in heaven. But it cost me 7 points!!! ugh. totally not worth it.

I think my problem is that I'm moving and I don't want to go grocery shopping. But I want to have this good food and the WW bagels and the frozen foods but moving all that is just UGH. I just have to hold out just a few more days and I'll be ok! Sigh. I can't wait to move and start over with fresh groceries.